Thursday, April 21, 2016

What if change isn't a bad thing...?

For as long as I can remember, the slightest bit of change has complete set me off.  When I was younger, and we were moving from house to house, I couldn't eat for weeks being nervous about the change. The transfer from Icc to ole miss scared me.... I hated it for the majority of my first semester. any time that I can feel something "different" it always has scared me.
But lately I've been thinking.... What if change isn't such a bad thing as I've always made it out to be. Here's to putting my best foot forward and embracing any change life throws my way.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

To Do List

For some reason, writing out a to do list relieves my stress when I have an enormous load of work to complete..... and I am in class and I have cookies, a pepsi, my wallet, and laptop on my desk. So no room for a pencil and paper. Sorry blog, you get to read my to do list.

1. Most important: finish 8-20 page juvenile delinquency paper by tomorrow night at 5pm
2. Do online discussion juvenile delinquency by friday night
3. do powerpoint for writ 250 by friday (that's gonna suck)
4. FINISH unit by next week!!!!!! 
5. turn in teachlive papers and certificate
6. put together powerpoint presentation interview for Dr. Lana

kill me

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Revisting my tag from 2011....

So I'm going back and revisting something that I posted in January 2011........ This will be something.... lets go


10 things about your appearance, (clothes, face, hair, height, smile, piercing’s, tattoo’s).
1. I have wet hair.OMG SAME
2. I am wearing grey and white striped shirt.Don't know what that is but it sounds ugly. Wearing a seafoam color tshirt
3. im wearing hot pink pajama pants. yoga pants lol
4. i dont have any shoes on.why would i
5. im wearing a green cami on under my shirt. that cami was from aeropostale 
6. im barely wearing any makeup i'm wearing none 
7. im wearing my necklace from george that i always wear/  wearing a pearl necklace and a bar necklace
8.  i have animal rubberbands, and hairbands on my arms. and a power balance. ok that sounds ugly... i'm wearing my rainbow lokai, pandora princess ring, and thumb ring
9. I am pretty skinny. "pretty" skinny 
10. Im average height.same ig

10 things you do every single day.
1. Sleep
2. eat
3. drink
4. hug flirt
5. text people
6. go on facebook instagram
7. go on gmail
8. take a shower
9. listen to my ipod going outside and listening to my iphone 
10. Talkk!

10 things about your personality.
1.I am quite talkative. ya
2.I think im funny. ya
3. Im smarttt...ish. toot toot oh wait thats my own horn
4. I get along better with guys whose the slut now, lori 
5. but i do have manyy girl bestfriends. ha 
6. I laugh a wholeee* lot. lol idk what happened to that
7. I apparently have an attitude problem.  nah duh 
8. I cry kinda easilyish. very easily 
9. I'm one of the weirdesttt people you'll ever meet. But I'll also be one of your favorites(: TOOT TOOT dang my horn won't shut up 
10.  I get along easilyy with people(: sure(: 

10 of your favorite foods.
1. potato soup. same
2. crackers. gross?
3.  m&ms same!!!!!!!!!
4. milk duds i mean not a favorite but theyre okay
5. sour patch kids. sick of them
6. nachos. sick of them
7. mashed potatoes! love them!!
8. condensed milk. yeahh that doesnt really count but whatever its okay 
9. ice cream yes
10.  doritos i guess
10 things about your friends.
1. taylor green is my bestfran. Haven't seen her in like 4 years :(
2. we've been through a lottt together.
3. our inside jokes are too manyy to count haha.
4. Nadine judehh is da junt. I love herr ta death idk why i said it like that 
5.lauren ostrander is the honestest(yes honestest) person i know. okay!!
6.  ashley and kara coward are some of the people i've been closest to for the longest. we have soo manyy memories and we always have a good time together. haven't talked to them in forever either :((((
7. amber estes is the newest person i've become good friends with. we sit right next to eachother in geometry. whatever i understand, she doesn't. and whatever she understands,  i dont. Today,  i did not understand AT ALL. she helped me tremendously. She makes fun of me being a blonde. Thanks ambaaa. punches myself in the face
8. kadie vance and I have the weirdest conversations. same with tia mabry. lol
9. I have alottt of close guyy friends, that i love to deathh. im sure i did
10. malloryy warnock is my oldest frienddd. friends since babies. too bad we only get to see eachother once or twice a yearrr:(( 

10 of your favorite people.
no ma'am. 
I was a chicken

10 things about your love interest.( ha love interest, really)
1. He was born in  May.
2. 6 days after me.
3. he's very serious about our relationship, whichh i appreciate(
4. he LOVES* mississippi state.
5. he likes pears and pineapples. hahah.
6. He plays basketballll.
7. Hes superr sweet to me..but wont even follow me back on instagram
8.  hes obsessed with scary movies.
9. we started going out on august 12. and he won't even follow me back on instagram on april 17
10.his bestfriends are taylor, jonah and jay. okay great best friends 

10 things you absolutely hate.
1. being embarrassed or in awkward situations. yes
2. being wrong.. what? I'm never wrong
3. when people act like they are better than everyone else.
4. How I think of things too much and upset myself.
5.  being mad.
6.  drama.
7. being confused in math. 
8. throwing up. same
9. When people push me to do things.
10. when people try to tell me what I* said or what I* did. yeah because I KNOW

10 things you love.
1. being outside on summer nights<3
2.  when im the only one awake(at night or in the morning)
3. being home alone.
4.  hanging out with friends.
5. Long conversations at night.
6.  after a big fight, when everything resolved and it just feels so good.
7. those  conversations i have with taylor green, when both of us are laughing so hard, and everyone thinks we are just stupid .
8. music.
9. twilight.
10. the feeling after you just get done shopping, and bought alot. random i know, but stll haha.
why didnt i say narnia

A Weekend in My Life

Hello, Hello :-)

Today I wanted to just update you guys on what I've been up to. I've had a particularly interesting weekend, so I thought I would give you guys a walk through of a weekend in my life... although not every weekend I do this much haha.

So the day starts off Friday morning at 6:10 AM. I roll out of bed and get dressed. I had to go to my school to observe, and stayed up wayy too late on Thursday. I got dressed, and got to my school in saltillo on time before 8. So I stayed there until around 11, and went home and changed into a tshirt and some converse. After that, I drove to Nadine's. We took her car and ate mugshots. She was craving it, and it was delicious. We needed to be in the downtown area anyway, because we had to pick up our color run tickets. We did so, and then headed to walmart to waste time until we could pick up our checks, which can't be picked up until 2. We actually took a 30 min nap in her car, and then went in to get our checks. Before she went in work, she bought me my birthday present.... the rainbow lokai!!!!*heart eyes*
Although it seemed like the day is about over, it was only 3. I had made plans with Becca. She came and picked me up at like 5, then we went to the mall, to eat at Danvers, and then back to my house. We just kinda sat around until I finally decided I wanted my belly button repierced. Sooo..... that happened.... and all I can say is it hurt like........... everything bad in this world lol. The guy who did it is the same guy who did Madeline's nose piercing, and my tragus piercing, and he does a great job. But the repiercing really hurt and shocked me.... after that the night was basically over and I went home and slept.

Saturday morning I woke up at 6:45. It was the color run!! The day we had been waiting for! Nadine came over at 7:30 maybe.. then we went and got breakfast and headed to the event. The run started at 9 and it was a lot of fun. It's a 5k and we both aren't star athletes... so naturally it was a little bit of a struggle. However, we made it and enjoyed the afterparty until around 12. Then we were both EXHAUSTED. I came home, showered and ate. After that, I slept until like 3. The rest of my night included watching PLL with Lainey. It was, indeed, a successful weekend.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Update :))

So I haven't actually updated since the summer, and boy has my life changed. I can't really say for the good or the bad. I have a new job, new friends, and go to a new school. IDK... lately I am a little down. BUT I have a super exciting weekend to look forward to!

Friday: Wake up at 6 am. Get dressed and go to Saltillo. At 11, come home. I'm gonna work on my research paper all afternoon, then go get my check around 3 or 4. Wait, before that, I have to go pick up my color run ticket. OKIE then go get my check. Then hang out with Becca. Keeping my mind busy is the best thing to do right now.
Saturday: THE COLOR RUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Finally, so excited. After that, for the rest of the night I don't know what I will do,
Sunday: OFF all day. What an exciting weekend :-)

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Survey to warm back up blogging

A – Accidents
01. Have you ever been in a car accident? I have had two people rear-end me. No damage to me tho.
02. Do you have a lot of scars? not particularly
03. Have you ever been in a fist fight with someone?If you would call knocking becca to the ground and slapping her in the face with whip cream, then getting drop kicked, yes.
04. Have you ever seriously hurt anyone by mistake? yes. when luke was an infant i was holding him and he stuck his finger in the fan
05. Have you ever had stitches? now that im without your kisses.... ill be needing stitches
B – Beauty
06. Do you consider yourself beautiful? im ok
07. Are you self conscious of how you look? yes
08. Do you put on a lot of makeup?If i feel like doing my makeup. Sometimes I barely put on any. it all depends
09. Would you ever consider getting plastic surgery? prob not
10. What do you like about your hair? the color and how if i style it, it stays that way
C – Consequences
11. What was the longest amount of time you’ve been grounded for?a week maybe
12. What would you do if you got pregnant, keep it or have an abortion? no thank you
13. Do you ever think about how your actions affect other people? sometimes. im accidentally selfish sometimes
14. What do you think is the worst punishment someone could give you? ignore me
15. What is one thing you wish you didn’t do, just because it wasn’t worth it in the end? >;-(
D – Dealing
16. When you are mad at someone, how do you show them? I say "im pissed at you"
17. Name a time when you had to be strong. everyday
18. Have you ever dealt with a divorce ? No, thankfully
19. When people at school don’t accept you, or have problems with you, how do you react?  
you think you're hot but im sorry youre not exactly who you- you think you arrrree. cant tell you what that you havent got but when you walk into the room
20. Have you ever lost someone to death? Explain how you got through it. yes. with my friends, and people supporting me and keeping me busy
E – Experience
21. Have you ever had a job? Any volunteer jobs? Danvers, Baskin Robbins, Tutti Frutti. and I intern at elementary schools
22. Do you think that you are experienced, or not at all? with?
23. Have you gone through a lot emotionally, or has life been easy thus far? I feel like I have, but I am probably just over emotional
24. Do you think you are ready to be on your own (have your own home, job, etc.)? probably  not
25. How old do you act? 16-21
F – Family
26. Is there anyone in your family you don’t talk to? Why? yes. hey grandmother miss us yet?
27. If you had to choose, family or friends? fam
28. Can you tell your parents or one of your parents anything? it depends ive never tried
29. Do you have any siblings? If so, do you ever get jealous of them? I have 3 bff sibs and no. i dont get jealous
30. How often do you spend ‘quality time’ with family members? all the time
G – Growing
31. How tall are you? How tall do you wish you were? 5'5
32. Do you think that you have grown more in the past year than any year before that?no
33. As a person, do you think you are mature for your age or still act childish? Both, at different times 
35. Do you believe you still have a lot to learn?yes
H – Hope
36. Love – real or not? real
37. Are you a pessimist of an optimist? optimist!!!!!!!!!!
38. Do you believe in fate, that everything happens for a reason, or do you think that our actions lead the way? everything happens for a reason
39. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive?yes
40. What gives you hope when you just feel like dying? nothing
I – Issues
41. Do you suffer from depression or constant sadness/loneliness? not constant sadness or loneliness but it has increased over the past year
42. Do you have any type of disease or disability? no
43. Are you currently in a hard relationship or have bad luck with the opposite sex? i have great luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never any problems!
44. Do you think that you are alone in this world? no
45. How often do you think about death, suicide or running away? they don't call this section issues for nothing(rt lori)
J – Jokes
46. Say a word or phrase that would not be funny to anyone but you & one of your friends (an inside joke) "SSS"
47. Are you usually the one who makes people laugh,Or the other way around? both. but im a clown sometimes
48. Do you cry when you laugh hard? not usually
49. Write down a hilarious moment you had with someone that makes you laugh to this day! when i first started working at tutti frutti, the watermelon machine was spilling everywhere. it literally flooded the whole back and i couldnt get it to stop. i text nadine and say "emergency come now" and she walks in all happy and says "I brought cookies!!" and i block the door and said "okay, before you look, this is not my fault" it was terrible
50. Do you ever get in trouble for laughing or talking a lot during class? Only once.........
K – Knowledge
51. The purpose of school: to learn, to cause trouble or to hang out with friends?to learn i guess is what im supposed to say
52. Do people refer to you as smart, dumb, or average? dumb
53. What was the highest grade you have received (full course mark) ever? 110
54. What was your last average? This year would you like to maintain it or aim higher? 4.0
55. What do you find the most interesting subject to be (to study or to talk about)? lunch
L – Love
56. Are you currently in love? If not, have you been before? yes 
57. Do people around you show you a lot of love (tell you they love you, hug you, kiss you, etc.)? only when i make them
58. Is love worth it? yes
59. Do you hate it when girls in their young teenage years say they ‘love’ someone that they’ve been dating for a few months? no am i petty??!
60. Does it take a lot for you to say you love someone, or is it just a word? if i dont love you, i just say i love youtube
M – Money
61. Do you believe that money makes the world go round? not specifically
62. Is your family on the poor side, average, or above average when it comes to money? average
63. Are you saving up for college/university, or planning to? scholarships
64. Would you rather win millions of dollars & be set for life, or find the perfect person to marry & start a family with? perfect person
65. On a scale of 1-10, how important is money to you? 6
N – Naughty
66. Are you a virgin?
67. What do you think about doing sexual things with someone you’re not going out with?
68. Do you know anybody you consider a ’slut’? What makes you say that?
69. If you could, would you erase some things you did in the past or make it so you did more?
70. Do you consider yourself more nice or more naughty? You can’t say both!
O – Openness
71. How long does it take for you to open up to someone? i open up very easily
72. What does it take for you to fully trust someone? i always trust people until they give me a reason not to
73. Are you generally untrusting towards people because of past experiences, or any other reason? yes
74. When are you comfortable with someone? very quickly
75. When it comes to parents and close friends, what’s the limit of what you can tell them?its hard to decide what to tell parents. close friends: yall better be ready to hear ab everything
P – Positive
76. Have you ever had an experience with someone that didn’t necessarily end positively? If so, would you rather erase the memory of that person because of the sad times or keep the memory of that person because of the good times? keep good times!!!!!
77. Do you agree with the saying: better to have loved and lost than not have loved at all? yes
78. Are you more optimistic or pessimistic? What do you try to be? opti
79. Do you agree that something good can come out of everything? no
80. Have you ever had a time where something really bad happened, but something really good happened because of it? If so, please exlain what it was: i guess so
Q – Questions
81. When faced with a problem, do you ask for help or try to figure it out yourself? i ask lol
82. Do you often question the world and how we came about? What are some things you would like to know about creation? sometimes i mean idk
84. When someone does something wrong to you, do you confront them and ask them why they did it or just let it go? it depends. if someone like nadine or lori makes me mad i will conf ront con front con front but if little susie who works next door pisses me off i just let it go
85. What is one unsolved mystery about the world that you want answers to? is big foot real
R – Respect
86. How do you show respect? say yes maam
87. What can someone do for you to lose all respect for them? lie
88. Do you respect your teachers, parents, and other authority figures? yes
89. When you are disrespectful to your parents, what is the punishment? "DO U WANT YOUR DATA CUT OFF? OK THEN LOSE THE ATTITUDE"
90. If someone is mean to you, are you mean back or do you kill them with kindness?mean back
S – School
91. If you are still in school, what grade will you be going into? I'll be a senior in college next year
92. When will you graduate high school/college? after this semester, 2 more
93. After high school, what did you do/are you planning to do? im in college
94. Do you like or hate school? What do you like/hate about it?i like school. ole miss is a lil rough
95. Have you ever been suspended, expelled, or dropped out of school? no
T – Temptation
96. Have you ever done something wrong, knowing it was wrong, because something inside of you said it was okay? who hasn't
97. Has anyone ever pressured you to smoke or drink? Did you do it? i dont do peer pressure
98. Why did you do it? i didnt
99. Did you ever want to do something sexual with someone you didn’t really know or love? What did you end up doing? wow lets wait till the second date before you ask me questions like this
100. Do you give in to temptation easily, or are you more independent and strong willed? :))
U – Unique
102. Do you do a lot of things because your friends are doing it? nahhh
103. Do you follow trends, wear whatever you want, or wear really unique pieces? depends on what the trends are
104. Do you give in easily to peer pressure? Do you do things such as smoke, drink, or have casual sex?  n o
105. What makes you different from people your age? i don't turn up every weekend
V – Value
106. What’s the most expensive thing in your room? nothing
107. What’s more valuable: your life or the lives of your loved ones? Would you sacrifice your life for other people? yes
108. What is something you value not because it cost a lot, but because it means a lot to you? thats a hard q
109. If there was a fire in your house/apartment, what is the first thing you would grab? purse, wallet, clothes, laptop
110. Do you think past memories and experiences are more valuable than what could possibly happen in the future? these are like philosophy questions
W – Wishes
111. If you had three wishes, what would they be? unlimited money, to be with my true love tomorrow, to never have to live through someone i love dying
112. Would you rather wish yourself to be happy, or your loved ones?  both
113. Do you believe that wishes come true if you really believe in them?if you put enough money in the wishing fountain
114. Have you ever had a wish come true? If so, what was that wish? yes. not saying
115. Do you find wishing for things a waste of time because everything that’s meant to happen, will happen? no
Y – You
121. Are you more independent or social? sociall
122. What is something that makes you very mad when you see it? ha
123. Do you think that you have potential to do great things? i hope so
124. Do you think people are born a certain way, or develop their personalities based on what they go through in life? the last option
125. Do you think people are generally good? ehhh
Z – Zest (ok?)
126. Are you currently happy with your life? Why or why not? i will be
127. Do you go on to get facebook survey’s and quizzes like this one? n0
128. When change occurs, do you get scared or are you excited for it? i h8 change
129. Do you like to try new things, meet new people?yes
130. What is the most motivational thing in the world? love

Friday, July 17, 2015

i've been a terrible blogger lately

and i am sorry. it's been my vacation week and i've just been laying in bed or hanging out with people. so i haven't really got the macbook to post. but here i am. it's friday,  and i plan on making the best out of one of my last vacation days. however, today makes 2 years that one of my good friends passed away.  he was the first person i ever really knew that died, and thinking about it still doesn't feel real. people are posting it all on social media and "rip" posts and i don't know. i just like to push this day to the back of my mind. i don't know. i guess the best thing to do is go out and get my mind off of being sad, so i'm going to go hang out with one of my friends for a little while, then me and my sister may hang out. who knows, not me. sorry for my vent, i just kind of needed to.

i pinky promise i will update every day from now on again ok :))